Day 3: A Minor Reset

Today was a work day – and I realize by the relief I feel tonight that I’m gonna need to plan one of those every week or so.  I had my first tiny meltdown last night (and it really was pretty minor).  I got to a campground 15 miles (40 minutes by way of winding roads through mountain passes) from cell phone service, and my spot was a mess (thanks to some punks from the night before, according to a neighboring camper), there was no running water, and the bathrooms were trashed (again, thanks to my predecessors).  I felt…all alone, for the first time (I know, I know; I was only 2 days in!), and I couldn’t “fix” the situation except by rushing (slowly) back to a place where I could re-“connect”…and then, I sat on the side of the road at first sign cell signal studying three different maps, reaching out to anyone who might provide help or encouragement, and frantically Googling for better options.  (I wanted to camp in natural spaces, to avoid campgrounds whenever possible, but there’s something kind of daunting about that, being ALL alone in the wild; it’s what I want, but it also feels scary…so for now I’m checking out various “types” of more “public” sites [insert sideways glance]…)  Next thing I know, a cop appears at my window.  “I’m sorry; I know I shouldn’t park here; I just need to regroup and can’t do it without cell service, which I’m sure you probably know is hit or miss at best around these parts…”  (I didn’t even let him get a word in, just blabbered my shiznit all over him.)  Of course he would ask “What’s your destination?”  Well, I don’t have one, per se, but that’s an awfully long story… My goal is aim-ful-ness (and if that’s not a word, it will be when I’m done with this journey).  I want direction.  And in those moments, I had none.  BUT…I didn’t cry.  He was kind.  Not super-helpful.  But kind.  And once I got a grip, I moved on up the road, found no room at one inn (campground), then sweet-talked the camp host at the next full grounds and wound up sharing a spot with a really nice older couple there.  They invited me to share their campfire too (gosh, the kindness of strangers…), but I just hid away in my Snail Space for the evening, and looked forward to resetting things a bit today… Long story short, I spent several hours in a coffee shop studying maps, books, and websites and making very specific plans for the next few days.  Tonight, my soul feels a little lighter.  It appears I’ve learned a few things in my journey already.  ❤  (This picture of the Siskiyou National Forest and Mountains represents to me the great expanse of opportunity this journey presents; it won’t be without challenges, that’s for sure, just like the wild is not, but the opportunities are as abundant as these trees and hills.)

Doing

3 Comments Leave a comment

  1. Inspiring! Keep taking it one day at a time and thanks for sharing such an awesome quest! The gods would surely approve thus far 🙂

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